It is contrast.

I knew there's something different about Blogger today..

But that's not the reason I'm here now.
This is yet, yet, yet again another rant post. Warned you.
Sorry for the mass of rants lately. But I have the feel to let it out, and this is the only place I can feel safe of ranting. ♥

This afternoon, one of my friends went all moody.
She avoids us most of the classes and doesn't even respond at all -at least understandably- whenever one of us asks her something.
Actually this is not the first time she've been like this; she does this often. And by often, I hope you know that I mean really often. She could get really sensitive sometimes, and all she does for the rest of the day is sit, text (that, or just pretending to), rest her head on the table and hide her face away from us, leaving us in endless confusion. She doesn't seem to be wanting to talk to us, but we know that if we don't try to communicate with her, it only makes her even mad because everytime she goes moody, the strongest possible cause we could think of is us 'leaving' her. Even though we never really thought we actually did it.
Now the thing is, everytime we try to initiate a conversation with her, she just look away and pretend that she's eternally deaf. In the end we'll only blame each other. She blamed us for forgetting about her, leaving her and not understanding what she needs as her best friends. We on the other hand, blamed her because she's the one who never understands us and will never want to.

Few days ago on April 23rd, she had her 16th birthday. Yippe.
We've planned to do birthday pranks on her and buy stuffs as her present, but we cancelled almost all of it.
And why's that?
One day, she chanced to say to me and the others, "no, I don't expect any pranks and presents".
Even though it's already clear that she really expected it. Her behaviors during the entire week before her birthday are exactly obvious. She said to us a couple lines among "do you know what I want for my birthday?", "are you talking about my birthday?", and later re-added the statement, "no, really, you don't have to do it for me. I don't expect any of those at all." She must be completely oblivious of our awareness.

This is my conversation with her after few days passed after her birthday and we didn't give her any present (yet. We're still thinking about it on that time).
Purple letters are hers. Blacks are mine.

"Honestly.. did you even have - you know.. any plan to pull on pranks on me, or prepare presents for my birthday or something?"
"No, we didn't." (actually, yes we did plan for one, but it's a part of the prank)
"Really? Well you know, I'm just..
I've volunteered in *my other best friends' names here, there are 3 of them* birthdays; I contributed for the presents, the pranks. 
But now finding out that you guys actually didn't give me any present at all, well.. you know, I'm just a bit sad and disappointed."
"I'm sorry."
"..I think I won't participate anymore if we plan to give birthday pranks and presents to the others. Knowing that I won't receive anything in return."

And I went like,

Doesn't that sort of imply something..?

Sure I felt bad about not giving her any present and I feel sorry for her, but.. if that's the way she compromises with things, she's way too selfish ;o When I told this to my other friends, they agreed. And we all kind of got discouraged to give her the present on that time :x

Then about less than a week after, we decided to just give it anyway. It's a red, small shopping bag.
The reason why we picked that for her is because she told us that she didn't have any and she'd love to have one, just something simple to keep her cell and wallet. And for the news, she mentioned that because she knew we're clueless for her birthday present. Which equals she really does expect it.
So we bought that one bag, wrap it up neat and when she opened the present, her face already said it all.

oh yeah. A bag. 
Fascinating. 
Thanks.

WELL YOU'RE WELCOME I LOVE YOU TOO but no, she didn't even bother to say that last word of gratitude, and for the next few days she kept ranting about that bag to one of us, saying how that bag is too small for her to even put her pencil case, the color is too classic, and that it's not possible for her to go anywhere with that bag. It just doesn't suit her style and she doesn't really like it.

It is contrast. Us and her. Contrast.
All her acts are irritating and displeasing D;
..even though I've also chanced to talk to her about this before, regarding all her bad traits, and convinced her to change those after hundreds of text messages,
but it turns out she never really tried. I think she doesn't even have any intention to.

I'm so sad.
:(

- xxxxx -